The Da Vinci Code

[susandel]

Hello again!

OK I only have a few things I can relpy to at this time.

I have to read the whole book in order to get the entire picture. I am suffering through Jillary Clintons book just so I can see both sides of the coin in order to state my opinions about her....as I have read opposing books against her. You seem like an intelligent person so I won't question how you can state an opinion without reading a book. I just can't.

I do think living without fear is the key to a healthy life. I will stand by my convictions and we will always have different opinions. Do you recall Benjamine Franklin said that fear was always expecting that you expecting to be exposed? I know he is not mentioned in the Bible but I can only give you examples of how I see things. Well anyway....Think about what he said, BRING EXPOSED. How? I think it has to do with fearing that our vulnerabilities will be exposed. Like as a poet said.....I don't no who he was but he said........

.IF I love you to much will you hurt me deeply? If I give you to much will I get anything back in return? If I really know my face will you not reject me?

I wrote this because you see, we spend so much of our life behind both faces.........I always did......but had many.....I was not deceptive I was afraid of letting people see the true me. I did not want to be hurt. It hindered my spiritual growth. I was natually a spiritualy seeking person.
I did not have a day go by that I did not think about deep sixing it because I was afraid of being
caught in school about how stupid I was. Fear ruined my life in school. I did not go to college...the only child of 8. I did not want people seeing DUMB Susan. I became a lier in order to have people like me. Fear.

My fear and phobias literally crippled me. Stress lead to illness and I am house bound in in a stupid wheel chair. I now have zero fear in GOD and love life more that I ever had. I can not do anything but I love life. I am writing a book about it now.

Now what I can tell you and I hope I explain it ok. The Greek word rendered as SIN is far less frightning than the modern English version. It may not have been so polluted......or maybe I want to say cursed as SIN is. Does that make sense? And in Aramaic SIN means "missing the mark" . Translations usually speak of errors against ones self. So as far as sinners the term would apply to the person who commited the crime as well as to anyone who was not a good practicing JEW....in those days.

I hope you can follow me...........have to go dag just got sick.......later...Susan

[Fear_nam_Beanntan]

I'm sorry to hear about your illness. It is definitely not healthy to be afraid of social situations, or to constantly hide your personality because you are afraid of what others might think. However, I still think a fear of God is healthy, inasmuch as it compells you to constantly improve yourself.

[susandel]

Good morning sunshine!

My computer was on the blink yesterday and I was not happy without having my fix of letters on scotland.com. It is working today. I just told you about my life in brief because I wanted to point out to you (and I must have not written my thought correctly) I feared God as a child. Everything we did in school the nun's said we would go to hell for. But before that can out of their mouths I always go it for being slow. Than abuse is what turned my life into fear. So I can not let myself fear God.

Don't you fine a knot in your stomach thinking about the bad stuff in life? I do not want that feeling. I just find that when I am peaceful with myself most is when I think of all the good God has given me. I then can do for others.......I know nothing can ever distroy me again.......I have been mugged...plus while in a wheel chair, I go into the getto alone and if I ask the white light of the Holy Spirit to protect me I can onl grow as a person even if something should happen to me......and God will always protect me. I have no fear at all.

I think we all how our own opinions in life.........and I still have Catholic priests as friends. I love all people and may not agree with lots but that is ok. I love to debate. For a bumg Dyslexic I think I am pretty smart.

I am going to go to the library and do research on what we have discussed. You did send some very interesting articles..........to my surprise....you God Fearing Creature!!!!!1

I love life! I'll talk anytime. God bless you......Susan