E . Adoption

[wishtoscotland]

im sorry .
cos im here in this area, in fact im not looking neither for my father nor my mother and i know where my brothers are ,and my uncle`s name is written with his number on my phonebook ....
but what i need is new family ,love ,care ,
i have a family but i dont have their love ,i left my country cos i didnt find the love and feelings that every child miss. and more hurting seeing ur mother giving ur brother care and kisses and deprive you from any,this is more hurting than being without a mother or father its more i can tell its like if you are thirsty and someone is drinking in front of you and you cannot get those drops,am i right ?
well im not a child but i feel that im still(26)athough i look younger
I finished studying and had BA in arts and have my job but i miss the love in its all shapes ,and what broke me recently is my divorce ,im completely broken i think in few years i will be lunatic and people will sympathize with me more maybe at that time my family will love me i mean sympathize like all pople do when they see lunatic person ,i think my request is clear , thank you for reading till this ,im boring i know .

[sunnymoe]

Hi reading your note.I felt very sad for you,I understand the pain you must feel. your divorce etc will stem from your childhood, you must not let it ruin your life. you are still young, there is plenty of happiness out there for you, try to let your past go and look to the future.

[wishtoscotland]

Thank you for your feelings,in fact i wrote this when i was in a deperate mood ,but now im ok ,repression of our sufferrings and not even talking about them makes us explode sometimes .i will be happy if you keep sending me thanks .
Moody
ps can you tell me more about yourself

[sunnymoe]

Hi glad you are feeling better, It does help to air your feelings and this way it is anonymously.
I was born in Glasgow Anderston area, Had the usual childhood where there is no affection left for the youngest child. Fought all my life to be better than my past. I do meditation & yoga which is very relaxing. I am happy and peacefull now